Well now
it was gonna happen.
I was
sitting on the bed, my legs drawn up to my body, watching Pluu, who was
quietly attaching ropes to some hooks. I had already heard the word
"partial suspension" being droppes, but except for the simple notion
that I was going to hang half I couldn't really imagine much about it.
The tension was rising, and so I could notice from everything: I was
shivering, my muscles and skin were tingling, and I didn't really know
what I should do now, except to hide behind my own knees.
Uh-oh.
Pluu was finished with the ropes. Time for me to join them. Shivering I
sat down, on my knees, and let Pluu do her work with the ropes. They
felt quite soft, and I was quite happy with that. Whatever the partial
suspension was going to be, it probably wasn't going to be easy. In the
mirror next to me, I kept an eye on all that was tied. Me hands on my
back in a way that I think is really very kinky, mmm! In the mirror I
looked like a girl that you van find on beautiful, classy BDSM websites
(or could find, I haven't been searching for such sites for years).
And back on my feet, a lot of rope around my waist, which I took as an
indication that that was the point from which I was going to hang. From
behind to just above my knees. Keeping my balance was already becoming
slightly more difficult. The ropes continued to below my knees. Al that
lashig, and so few leeway, but yet I was beginning to learn to to keep
my balance better in such a situation. How quickly the body adapts :-)
Then a rope around my ankles and that one too tied behind my legs to
the other wraps. By now, I could hardly move, even bending my knees
resulted in a lot of resistance by the ropes around my body... After
pluu had taken a gfood look at how cute I was looking, I went on my
back with considerable difficulties. Well, it wasn't that hard. I
watched the ropes dangling above me. I still didn't know what was about
to happen.
Not much
later I was skilfully raised into the air, until only my shoulders and
head were resting on the floor below me. I knew that with my hands free
I could also manage this position without ropes, with my elbows on the
ground and my hands in my back, but now my elbows were nicely off the
ground and my hands were unable to support my back. The hipwraps were
pretty nasty though, pressing painfully against my hipbone. Probably it
wouldn't take long before I wouldn't feel that anymore, I thought to
myself. At first I tried ro ease my position by straining different
muscles, but eventually I gave up and surrendered to the ropes and
Pluu's playing. Oh, those nails over my calves felt so..so..it asked
for a reaction, but which? What could I do? Not very much. That
pinching in my butt, ouch, how hard, that hurts, but how delicious. It
didn't take long before I was in a rush, everything was delicious,
everything was nasty, but it was so good.
Vaguely I
saw an energetic Pluu being happy with something. Ouch, was that a
clothespi-OUCH! Yes, that was a clothespin. For some reason the wooden
ones really feel different, also because I place them a bit further on
the nipple, I saw. The pain cleared my head a little, but on the other
side I sunk away even deeper. I didn't care much what this all meant, I
just went on enjoying.
Different sensations were apllied to me, from nails to soft fingers,
from the clothespin moving from the one place to the other rather
quickly to some candlewax and even the candleflame itself. Just when my
feet were starting to prickle Pluu did a check-up, and so I said they
had just started to fall alseep, knowing that I would probably remain
hanging there for a while. And so it happened. Eventually Pluu said
that I would be let down for some five minutes before being raised
again. Fine with me, if that could prolong the session, I'd be happy
anyway!
Being flat on the ground again was also a bit weird. Being brought down
gave another depth dimension, and became even more hazy and clear at
the same time. Somewhere I heard that I had already been up for almost
20 minutes, and that that was quite a while. Somewhere I felt proud of
that. But had it felt like 20 minutes? It didn't feel like less, not
like more, not much like 20 minutes either. Where was my sense of time?
When it
was time to go back up, I had the feeling that I'd been down for about
a quarter of an hour, and at the same time just a minute. And there I
went back up again. Now that I had some Idea of how I was supposed to
hang, I could even aid by steering a little by using my
once-really-alot muscles. Maybe I should keep up my exercises, perhaps
one day it would be something again. My hip almost instantaneously
hurt, it felt like it was still bruised from before, and therefore hurt
even more. To ameliorate that a little, I pulled myself up a little by
my legs, but my legs couldn't keep that up for long, as I was obviously
getting tired. Then I surrendered again to the sensations and in no
time I didn't feel my hip no more, at least not more than all the other
aches, Pluu's fingers and nails and the candle wax. The candle wax!
When she grabbed the wax light again, I realised that that light had
been standing there lit for a long long time, and that there would be
many and hot wax in it. That was a nice fearful sensation, accompanied
by surrender, followed by pain and pleasure.
Suddenly
I realised that it was becoming tough on me. Almost all parts of me
started nagging that I wouldn't be able to keep up this position for
much longer, that I was having a hard time, that it was great. When I
was asked what was getting difficult (probably it had become noticeable
that I was having a hard time), I had my answer ready: "everything". A
Big Grin by the Mean Lady. As soon as my feet started prickling again,
I mentioned it. It was better to tell Pluu such things, so that she
could take into account everything happening with me.
After another flood of wax and nails I was finally lowered. Everything
hurt, everything felt great, and my head was swimming, floating and was
in a rollercoaster at the same time. It felt like I'd been lying on
that spot for another half hour or so, even when my hand and ankles
were untied. Everything felt great. The journey back to the other room
wass't really registeres. I was clear, knew to move easily, kept my
balance, but at the same time I was miles away.
Once,
when I was in hospital, I've had a shot of morphine. Then, one and a
half hour seemed like just 20 minutes. And this time I no sense of time
at all, but everything else seemed much like when that shot of morphine
started losing its effects. The cups of porridge, of which I had eaten
mine without using a spoon, were still on the table, and while I did
see them, the next moment I was staring along them, and had forgotten
all about them. I was aware of my environment, and aware of being part
of it, but not completely of the fact it wasn't a dream, and that
interaction was possible. When I had regained my senses a bit, a few
strokes through my hair were enough to let me sink back again a long
way. Wow!
The cold
outside brought me back a bit, but definately not completely. This
effect was going to last a while longer. Once on the tram I watched
Pluu, ducked away in my coat, still enjoying, expecting that this would
be one of those rare occasion on which I would only be staring out the
window during the ride, wondering what I had experienced this time.
At the
railway station my mood swung for a while. The cold no longer touched
me, I felt big, strong, tough, charged, ready for the world. *grin*
Next time when I'm down I'll know what to do, or rather have done toe
me. By now, the two moods have merged. Spacy, but strong and charges.
What a great feeling. Falling asleep will not be a problem today!